Peter Foeng Old Blog

Feeling Anomaly
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terkadang kita merasa semua itu baik ada-nya
tidak pernagh terlintas bagaimana perasaan orang lain di sekitar kita
merasa diri paling hebat
merasa diri paling pintar
merasa diri segala-galanya

semuanya berjalan sebaliknya
tidak baik adanya
semuanya hanyalah semu
tertawa akan keberhasilan diri
tertawa atas penderitaan orang lain..

mungkin tidak pernagh terpikir
tidak sekalipun
bahwa orang lain juga punya perasaan
bahwa mereka bisa merasakan hal yang sama
bahwa mereka hanyalah seorang manusia biasa, sama..
sama seperti kamu
yang tertawa atas penderitaan orang lain
yang hanya memikirkan kepentingan sendiri…

mungkin kita tidak punya hak untuk mengatakan hal ini
mereka selalu berjalan atas kemauan mereka sendiri
tidak ada yang bisa melarang….

tertawa-lah..
nikmati sendiri kemenangan-mu
nikmati sendiri kepintaran-mu

tetapi ingatlah
"Dunia ini tidak pernagh menjanjikan sesuatu yang pasti"
layaknya roda berputar
suatu saat pasti akan berada di bawah
siapa yang tahu kalau nanti-nya giliran kita
giliran kita…
yang menertawakan atas..
atas kesombongan yang Anda ciptakan sendiri

[to be continued..]

Cheerzzz,
PeteRAoKi

two thumbs up buad negh lagu…thanks to him. It describes my feeling right now probably the situation of which you can figure it out by yourself by reading the lyrics and listening to the song…enjoy

Wait For You – Elliot Yamin
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[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you
& I’m wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I’m all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I’ll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It’s been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me, your still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can’t we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I’ll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it’s a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing i do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I’ll wait for you

I’ll Be Waiting.
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Cheerz,
PeteRAoKi

A question that needs a heart to answer
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It was about a week ago, when we had this interesting conversation between me, Arly, and Glen in IA (Imaging and Animation) class. The conversation was begun after Glen (if I am not mistaken) talked about his interest on MAYA, Autodesk (3D software). He said that it is probably the one that he is going to take it very seriously into the future, the point is He wants to learn MAYA seriously now and later in the future finds a job that requires a specialty in MAYA probably game development (character development and stuffs). The next second (at this time Arly wasn’t joining our conversation yet, he was still looking at his attic modeling), Glen told me that He somehow lost the interest to learn this MAYA software, the reason is (probably) it’s kinda hard for a newbie such as us, there are EXTREMELY a lot of tools to learn in MAYA and plus you have to know the technique to properly use them when you model something. When you have the willingness to learn something new, the way to learn them is not easy, it’s hard and it’s always be. (Arly out of nowhere joined the conversation, I didn’t remember the detail though but I’ll tell the point) Arly said it is somehow not right to learn something just for the future, coz it’s probably the reason that slows down the process of learning itself. Glen on the other hand still argues that He should learn MAYA to help him find a professional job later in the future…This conversation goes back and forth (it was pretty hot that time though, I wasn’t talking much that time but I was listening)

The point is now, not to judging who is right and who is wrong. I myself (after the conversation was over and we left the class) start to think, what’s the purpose I am learning all the stuffs in university life? what are they for? Am I going to find a job that suits what I have learned back then? This point onward I am thinking. Finally I come up with own conclusion…for me, ‘Learning is a fun process’ and I don’t wanna lose the fun part because I have to learn these stuffs for my professional career later in the future. Well, that also doesn’t mean that I don’t care about my future; I do care and I always do but I don’t wanna force and push everything into my future, I just want to let it go.

After these years, I guess I am still the old me who says "you’ll never know what the future holds, The very least thing you could do is sit back, relax, and have fun of life". What I learn right now is things that are required to be fulfilled by my course provider, some of them don’t but it’s my hobby. There are four different things I am learning right now for my courses: Adobe Flash (Design for Interactive Media 1), ASP.NET (Web Development Technologies), JAVA (Software Architecture and Design), and MAYA (Imaging and Animation). Out of the 4 choices, I put a huge amount of interest only on ASP.NET and Adobe Flash. I shaped out my future and later I probably will find a job that requires specialty in Web Development (Web Designing is more preferable). Everything I learn about new things on web, my heart beats so fast and even faster like it wants to dig out more and more. I don’t know why but I guess it’s my nature and sort. Besides those two, I now learn ASP.NET AJAX, Microsoft Silverlight, Microsoft Expression Blend, and Adobe Flex. All of them are tools to help me visualize my wildest imagination on web. This is I guess the purpose why I learn them all, it is to fulfill my hobby, not only for my future and sort.

Probably some of you come out and do not agree with me. You may have your own opinion and conclusion about this topic on top of mine. There is definitely no right and wrong answer here, but as the topic says (if you read on the top) it does requires a heart to answer such question: Learning? What is it for? Your future? or Else? The point is like I said "You’ll never know what the future holds, does all the hard work you’ve done so far will bring you into a bright future? or The other way around?" Consider the old saying "Life is like a wheel, it keeps on turning upside down as long as you’re on it"

Cheerz,
~PeterAoKi ["I'm not creative enough as you are, @orangedan.net"]

NB: I don’t have any intention to discredit and offend Arly and Glen, but it is very interesting topic for us I guess.

It’s been 3 and so years since I entered the University,
Yet it is my fourth and final year before I get my bachelor degree,
It does occur to me that I have this "OLD AND BAD HABIT",
that is "TO POSTPONE THE WORK TILL THE VERY LAST MINUTE",

I know that I can start earlier,
I know that I can do something more if I start earlier,
I do know that I don’t have to enter the "SLEEPLESS NIGHTS" period,
but why? why? and the same question of why?..
why I never start earlier? why I don’t do that?

The consequence is simple,
simple yet devastating….I have to join those who are having the same problems….
"SLEEPLESS NIGHTS", 6 hours a day….

I hope one day…
I can really commit to change this old and bad habit,
I wish I do…

Regards,
PeteRAoKi

Setelah blajar di RMIT and BiNus University, I found out both University has different style in Learning process. Banyak perbedaan yg gw temuin di RMIT setelah gw blajar selama 2 taon di BiNus. Di entry kali ini, part 1 dari BiNus vs RMIT gw bakal sedikid membahas perbedaan di assignment. Di Next entry gw bakal bahas perbedaan di lecture and tutorial experience. So, let’s start.

RMIT. Di RMIT untuk beberapa subject tertentu (well, most of them; ok, some of them), assignment-nya dipukul rata buad semua murid, which means there is only one single problem to be solved. Contoh: semester lalu gw ambil pelajaran Software Architecture and Development (which obviously is, Programming 3 or P3). P3 basically advanced level programming of Java. But, in my opinion it is not (menurut gw ngak segh =p). Nah di P3 subject di assignment 1 kita dikasi one single assignment which was disuruh bikin Master Mind Game (kalo pernagh maen game di Handphone Siemens SL45, ada game ini) tp disuruh implementasi pake Socket. Ok, well….obviously, at the very beginning the course coordinator has specifically specified the marking criteria. For Example: The Game should support multiplayer up to 6 player or etc.
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As the title says, “it’s around 5 weeks to go” before my 1st semester doing Master degree ends. Currently at the moment is the week without any assignment submission but I know and I realize another hell of weeks are waiting just right in front of me. 5 submissions in total till the end of the semester. Let’s break it down a lil’ bit.

Internet Industry Project (IIP)

The basic functionality is almost done for my part, I’ve just hand over the project to Glen to have him works on the storing of courses to the database. My part is almost done except the calendar which is supposedly to be the hardest part. I’ve got the open source project for monthly calendar on the internet which I’ll be using to build up the weekly view as well as the daily view. Hopefully, it can be done without a major issue. The integration should be done in two weeks time (you guys probably have no idea what kind of iPhone project we are developing but I’ll make a dedicated post to “show-off” our project)

Web Services

The assignment is a nightmare. Our first group meeting was done this monday but we haven’t really figure out the whole picture of the assignment. Today, I consult with my housemate, Evan and suprisingly his thought is mostly likely the same with mine but then the idea to include the database into the infrastructure is just hard to imagine. I have a very bad experience dealing with database using Java because it’s too lame. The project is based on the domain creation stated on ICAAN website (http://www.icann.org)

Document Markup Languages (DML)

I have finished the last assignment and have nothing to worry about. This is done using Peter’s intellegence services.

Web Servers and Web Technology (WSWT)

The level of the difficulty is so so compare to Web Services (WS) which is again a nightmare ever. There are 2 assignments before the end of the semester and one of them is running project right now. There are no major issues at the moment and Google can serve our need to find the solution.

Well, that’s the rough idea of my assignment submission. As you read, I don’t go to the detail because you guys will definitely get bored (well, I bet you are). Hopefully, in the next post I’ll post some interesting story about my personal life.

PS:

• Events section is updated with new upcoming events
• Blogroll section is updated with my sister wordpress blog link (Ingelia Levina Foeng’s Blog: http://www.ph03.wordpress.com) and you can pay a visit
• I’ve added a new link section called “Peter’s Website Link” which basically links to my webpages.
• Enjoy!

Stay Tune!

Hi all,

This is my first post on the new blog. I dont have any idea what to write actually coz this is so sudden I mean I just have the idea to create this blog and post it as fast as it takes:p sebenernya gw biasa nulis blog di MSN using my MSN spaces. Pertamanya gw pikir disini bakal beda dari blog yg laen secara dikid juga anak indo yg pake My MSN Spaces, yang paling banyak segh pake friendster blog. Setelah pake My MSN space segh sebenernya gag ada masalah cuma yagh berhubung susagh connectnya ke sana…and harus pake IE cozzz kalo pake browser laen ada beberapa menu yang gag muncul geto jadinya kalo maw isi entry duh bawaannya males edan. Cuma gw gag taw degh kalo pake friendster blog susagh gag updatenya.

Mengenai blog segh, gw demen baca blog orang especially when they talk about their life. Bukannya gw ‘kepo’ ato apa pengen taw masalah orang cuma gw emang orangnya demen kalo baca pengalaman hidup orang laen. I remember I talked to yoan till 5′oclock in the morning over a telephone call talking this sort of personal stuff. Yea..we spent around 6 hours on the telephone line. Yagh…kalo ada yg sharing2 segh gw demen aja cozz for me that sort of stuff tuh bisa bantu gw buad jalanin hidup. Learn from others maybe that’s one of the keys to success. Yagh…gw cuma maw bilang aja gw basically demen baca blog orang karena emang kalo blog kayanya more or less pasti bicarain personal matter of that particular writer rite…kalo ngak segh gw rasa itu bukan blog yagh kan? logikaa aja degh:P

I think that’s all for my first entry and for now on I’m goin to use this blog to write anything as I’ve said on my first entry on my previous blog ‘this blog is daily dairy for me’ hehehe….I hope anyone can read it and dont forget to put some comments:p

oh iyagh ini url kalo pada maw ke blog gw yg lama tapi kayanya gag bakal gw update lage lets see…http://petermaidenblog.spaces.live.com

Cheerzz,
PeteRPaGe~CheeZZy.NET

ok…..hari ini hari rabu tepadnya pukul 06.02.. I am sittin right in front of my laptop, baru aja bangun sekitar 15 menit-an yg lalu…wah yang pertama kali terlintas di pikiran gw pas gw bangun segh, there is still one exam left which is Data Structure Algorithm and Analysis…waw, that’s sounds wierd the subject and yes it is wierd enough to be studied…hahaha

After that, the second thing that comes across my mind is the very long holiday that also comes right after this….maybe about 6 hours later to be exact. Yagh gw gag maw kepikiran dolo degh buad nikmatin liburan segala macem, soalnya negh exam yang gw hadapi terakhir kayanya bener2 berat….Mid exam DSAA gw daped jelek negh, cuma 65 out of 100, then I do expect that the same thing would never happen again for this final exam thingy…huff, all I want is to do the best degh without considering what I will get in this exam. Kemaren segh udgah semped blajar barenk and udagh mulai lumayan degh about concept and everything……tapi masi puyeng2 skitar linked list….wakaka, ampun dgeh gw….hikzzzzz

Hari ini selain exam, ada beberapa kegiatan laen segh:p Maw balikin Novel ke Aulia negh, and sekalian pinjem yang baru hehehe….sorry negh Au gw pinjemnya sebulan kali ini hehehe….terkahir segh novelnya gw pinjem like a year get 2006 to 2007, hahaha….ampun degh:p yagh lumayan buad baca2 ntar pas gw pulang ke sono, thanks Au….

Terus anak2 PBC juga maw ke emporium negh ama anak PAC…..brapa orang yg pergi and naek mobil sapa negh> mudagh2an Anggrek gag macet kaya rabu lalu, kalo macet segh GG lah kita semua sodara2…hahaha:p btw, lets have some real fun…hehehe:p soalnya hari kamisnya gw udagh harus langsung balik negh ke kampung gw, jadi kita kayanya gag bakal semped ke empo2 lage sampe masuk semester 4….

Yagh udagh degh, ini dolo aja;p gw harus mandi negh soalnya udagh pukul 6:12 skrg wah…..cepednya, kalo ngak bisa telad negh ada soal2 DSAA yang maw gw tanyain beberapa negh ke yg udagh ngerti….hikzzz, hopefully the exam wont be that difficult and I can do all the questions successfully….hehehe;p ok, the last thing GUD LUCK TO PETER, CIA YOOOOOOO:p and Gud Luk to All My Frenzzz…Lets have a blast of the 3rd Semester

CheeRRzzz,
PeteRAoKi

Last week, I celebrated my 22nd Birthday. It was a total surprise, I have no idea at all, and a lot of funny things happened that day. This post will tell the story about what happened on 17/07/2009 and 18/07/2009. I’ll try to describe the story using section; as you guys read a bold heading across the entry that means another scene which separates the previous section to the next. The story is somehow going to be long enough, so you guys can grab a snack while reading the whole entry. I hope you guys enjoy the story and put some comments if necessary.

17-07-2009 (11.00 PM)

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It was the treat time. Cika completely lost the bet coz the final mark of Web Server and Web Technology of the four of us was less than hers. In my opinion this bet was kinda silly and aimed for silly people just like us; but anyway, I didn’t care as long as I got treated from her and my menu for that night was “Belgian Waffle” (topped with Banana and some hot chocolate). It is my favourite menu everytime I come to Max Brenner. So, we had agreed to come at around 11.00 PM and my plan was to spend that night with them (Maryanto, Cika, Onee, Dennis, and Glen) by having a little chit-chat just before my Birthday. I was dissapointed because by the time I arrived they didn’t have any spirits at all (just like they were going to die…no offense but it was true). I asked them why, but none of them giving me a satisfying answer. Again, I did’t care too much coz I was still aiming for Belgian Waffle so that other thing couldn’t distract me much. I took couple of shots of Maryanto for the scrapbook project (this is gonna be another story on another entry). There was no chit-chat at all there in my opinion and we were there for just around 15-20 minutes or so and Onee couldn’t stay long coz she needed to catch the train. So, Onee was going home and the rest was going home as well just after we took couples of shots (again they were for Mary’s scrapbook) in front of the state library.

18-07-2009 (00.00 AM to Midnight)

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At a second I thought I would be doomed that night, it was my birthday and everyone was going home and I was lonely and spending the rest of the night with my housemates. Glen told me he was going to my apartment to grab some files probably movies or games, so I waited for him to get ready in front of this apartment building. That night was damn cold with the wind blew at a moderate rate. While waiting for him, I took out my camera and produced some couple night shots and the result was very satisfying and I love all the photos that were taken that night; they are just beautiful though the noise level is somehow high (ISO 1600). Around 15 minutes or so, He was ready and We went to my apartment while having a very wierd chit-chat that night talking about Harry Potter the latest movie and some other stuffs. When I was just in front of the state library, Evan (my housemate) called me and asking where was I. This was the time when I noticed something fishy was going on. If you wanna know part of the phone conversations, I outline them just below (I just couldn’t remember the exact words but it is 90% similar. Anyway it is in Indonesia).

Evan: Pet, dimana loe?

Peter: Hah?? (bingung…) gw di depan Australia Post negh, 1 blok lage gw sampe koq. Knapa van?

Evan: Ngak gpp. ini koq gag ada sapa2x yagh dirumah? pada kemana semua yagh? taw ngak loe?

Peter: (lolz…?????? tambah bingung…soalnya harusnya ada Indra, Edwald, Yoko, and Kentung; masa mereka semua pergi…lagean setaw gw mereka gag ada rencana maw kemana2….????bingung) Wadugh, gw gag taw tuh van, gw soalnya kan pergi ke Max Brenner and tadi mereka masi ada koq di rumah. Emangnya loe sendiri darimana? bukan-nya loe jg udagh pulang tadi?

Evan: hah? Oh ngak, gw barusan pergi ke rumah temen and baru aja pulang trus liad gag ada orang di rumah.

Peter: (bingung lage….Evan pergi malem2 trus pas pulang gag ada orang di rumah, ikudan bingung ada apa sebenernya) Hmmm….gag taw gw mah van, nanti degh gw udagh deket negh udagh di lampu merah post office.

If you read the above conversation, you’ll know how fishy it sounds. Evan was home just before I went to Max B; when I went to Max B, he also went to his friends’ house and by the time he came back home, no one was there. That time I didn’t care much and still thinking “damn, I am gonna be doomed tonight”, but anyway I got a bottle of wine I just bought after I finished working so my plan was “Playing Ragnarok Online with the housemates and Enjoying the wine for celebrating my birthday”. I realized it was totally a very PATHETIC idea and silly of me.

18-07-2009 (~ 00.30 AM)

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Me and Glen arrived at my apartment. Again, I sighed…(lolz, becoz I was doomed). When I entered my apartment, it was very dark coz all the lights were turned off and there was a Birthday cake on the dining table. It was a total blast and didn’t care enough who brought me this cake but seconds later everyone was there including Onee (I thought she was going home coz she through the station already) and I was kinda blown away. Onee, Cika, Dennis, Glen, Yoko, Evan, Indrie and her sista, Edwald, Indra, and Maryanto was there, couldn’t say a word and I could throw away my silly idea of spending the night by playing RO and having a glass of wine.

18-07-2009 (00.30 AM till drop)

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The birthday cake is blackforest and everyone told me to make a wish before slicing it up. My wishes aree…..they are secret though xD. I sliced the cake and giving the 1st special slice to Onee for some reasons . I think the slices were just enough for everyone and I opened up the wine for everyone. Evan took couple of pictures of us altogether; again it was fun and it was a blast. The surprise didn’t stop there, they had another plan which to make me up so that I looked like Joker….this is very funny, I just couldn’t resist what they had done to me…I was looking the pictures from Evan’s camera, I was so ugly and thanks everyone for making me looked like that xD. I probably won’t upload the photos anyway…

Cika, Onee, Indrie and her sista decided to go home earlier than the rest of my friends,,,I thought they were having speaking exam the next day CMIIW. The make up was just wet anyway and I should get rid of them or otherwise the make up itself would be all over my bed that night. It took me 3 showers to actually get rid of the make up. The boys were playing magic with Yoko, while I was busy replying all the wishes from my facebook account.

Again, I’d like to thank everyone for taking part of throwing this surprise b’day for me. Last year, I was celebrating my birthday in Sydney; Sylvia, Enrico, and My sister Inge was also throwing me a surprise b’day; some of the pictures could be found here. Anyway, I’d also like to thank everyone for the b’day wishes and it wasn’t that meaningful without the wishes. Some of the photos from this 22nd B’Day surprise are still being processed because 90% are over exposed probably it’ll take some time to fix though.This is the end of this entry and hopefully whoever reads my story will enjoy it anyway; I know it’s a long story but writing this entry gives all the memory back again.

some random pics from the album:

Thanks everyone and Cheerz from Melbourne.

~Peter Suryaatmaja Foeng

Back lage ke blogging,,, skarang gw lage semester break negh buad 1 minggu, biasalah kalo disini ada kaya semester break geto biasa-nya segh abis University Census kita dikasi one week break. Gw bener2 berharap segh sebenernya ama ini liburan, ntah kenapa semester ini berasanya cape dan melelahkan segh sebenernya….Ntah Knapa..? padahal boleh dibilang gag ada submissions yg berat2 segh (kalo menurut gw), yang ada adalah submissions yg merepotkan and takes time a lot when you actually do it…

Disemester ini, gw membuat beberapa keputusan yg nantinya bakal jalanin setelah gw selesai semester ini. Kira2 listing segh keq begini, cuma kalo kira2 ada yg kelupaan yagh ntar gw update lage segh.
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